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26
May
you fell off your pedestal. i looked up to you, aspired to be you. &then you started picking up bad habits. i can’t exactly pinpoint when it happened, but gradually you began to fall from grace. i used to be proud of you. now i’m mostly just embarrassed by you. you’ve become such a disappointment, such a disgrace.
this person that you are right now, i have no clue who she is.
25
May
It’s a gift &a curse.
Women admire a man who works hard, who is ambitious, and is goal-driven. Women are attracted to that, claim to respect it, but don’t understand it. They claim that they are able to handle it, but later down the line let it drive them crazy.
Personally, I feel more joy out of accomplishing a goal than I would anything concerning a relationship. Why? Because people relationships may come and go. You can put all of your effort into one person & go all-in with your heart to bet that they won’t break it. But ambition? That’s true staying power. I control the pace, the effort, the result.
Before you claim to be attracted to, admire, or love someone driven by ambition, understand &respect the fact that you will almost never come first.
Stay hungry, not thirsty.
17
May
Now I’m told that this is life
&pain is just a simple compromise,
so we can get what we want out of it.
Would someone care to classify
a broken heart &twisted minds?
So I can find someone to rely on
And run to them
Full speed ahead.
Oh, you are not useless, we are just
Misguided ghosts travelling endlessly.
The ones we trusted the most pushed us far away
And there’s no one road.
We should not be the same.
But I’m just a ghost, &still they echo me.
They echo me in circles.
15
May
i made karma my bitch.
i can’t wait til she comes after your ass.
&i’ll just sit here with a smirk on my face. hahahaha
i hate those instances that come along when i have to
a) ask myself WHY THE FUCK DO YOU EVEN CARE!?
and
b) remind myself that i’m doing so much better on my own
granted, those days come a lot less often than they used to, but
i still hate it.
just gotta keep the mindset that the things that are making me happy these days are things that no one take away from me. so i keep truckin’
08
May
BOYFRIEND REQUIREMENTS
1. Dance with me to this song <3
30
Apr
Consider this my reiteration
Miss I want to read into your nature
Like the deepest of liter-ature
Miss I’m trynna to be in your space without being in the way of your dreams and education
Let me say this the realest bitch in the room
Her living situation ain’t too good, so her living begins in June
Miss couldn’t get them Jimmy Choos cause tuition is due
Miss wherever you S-A-T I want to A-C-T like I want to get into you, no particular school
Miss made some new friends stepping with crews
Miss aka Miss Crimson and Cream, Miss Unaffiliated
But whatever it is baby hope you pledge to your dreams, forever my queen
Look I’m still talking to you, baby
You like your school but you’re sick of Sally Maybes
Great sex, she ain’t slept, she can’t rest tomorrows that big test
Two of her friends strip she never judge them though
She insecure with her body so she like fuck it though
I put you on that pedestal
Shorty I’m just saying that your effort makes you edible
That’s something they won’t ever know
Look it something they can’t ever see
Shorty you supercede anything they’ll ever be
Go ahead and study shorty, hit me when you finish up
It’s never late, we celebrate soon as your papers done
Shout to them girls in the club that don’t fuck with they professors
Yessir, lets have a toast for the girls
That you offer them ones but they ain’t let you
I love your ambition
Shout out to them 4.0’s and them 1.5s that don’t mind and say fuck it, I tried
It’s nothing to deny for having such a mind, I’ll be having y’all in mind
It’s something you can ride too
Dress up and get fly too
It’s something you provide that make me want to get inside you
Look, ambition will define you
You don’t worry about them bitches you just doing what they’d like too
And I’d like to serenade you for every day you
Chasing your dreams instead of chasing a niggas paper
And God blessed me with a lot of patience
But I ain’t had none in a while I need your aspirations
Shout out to them girls in the club that don’t fuck with their professors
Yessir, lets have a toast for the girls that you offer them ones but they ain’t let you
I love your ambition
Ambitious for life and you know thats wussup
I love all the inspiration
No matter how your day goes or how your day went
For Life
“go head &study shorty, hit me when you finish up.” 😘
27
Apr
would feel good about doing math exercises after not having to take a math class in 4 years. no lie, dosage calculations are fun. EASY PEASY, LEMON SQUEEZY!
24
Apr
19
Apr
after almost five years of working with the same people, you grow up together and share a bond that is only rivaled by family. after all the bullshit we’ve been through together, know that i always went hard for you guys & i regard you all as members of my family. whenever i hear that you’ve been disrespected or made into some sort of cruel punchline, my protective instinct takes over &i start plottin murder. we’ve gotten that close; poetically speaking, i would go to war for you guys.
i hated that job, but i’m glad i got a family out of it.
i love you guys <3
17
Apr
so much wasted potential.
but then again, how much did you really even have without me?
hahahahaha.
11
Apr
i tell myself that all the time - gotta stop sayin things &start doin things.
09
Apr
yet somehow, i didn’t…
decided to read ‘catching fire’ instead of studying for pathophysiology.
i feel like i just cheated on school.
